east cult

For the longest time I've been trying to figure out this Nurmo Joensuu Kouvola Karjala place and what it symbolizes and I figure it's this deep hate towards children, seeing them as nothing, trying to teach rules, law, class, teaching authority, forcing this idea of familial ties and then this folklore obsession. I see it as this suffocating sleeping bag that I got each time I was belittled as kid (funnily enough whenever I tried to tell about it in therapy I was disregarded or belittled and it was not taken seriously (by traumawalker therapists). Then there is this whole class thing that's not talked about and shame and pride and frowning and prejudice and also belief of not being get rid of it ( a lie) and religious programming and pity.  To me it shows up especially christmas-themed as it was the only time I ever was interested in relatives and so it is and will be. There's this huge guilt program of owing something to family and not saying no and it being a taboo and completely cutting ties and being completely free of any mimicked energy being a taboo. Or people referring to genes or whatever when it's all just energy or people being too scared to look face to face the most toxic stuff and rather staying stuck in a lie or playing a false authority or going into some story. The people often use a certain false tone and have forgotten their actual self and they rely onto some family folklore and emphasize some inheritance or owing. Not completely related but in my view a lot of the new age healing cults also ties to this, all ancestor stuff and forcing them into spiritual practise, I think is just shame and fear and owning kind-of-a thing that's all just darkness. To me it means nothing and is a scam and it's this storyline and virtue act done to get points in fear of karma or in order to be favored. I literally feel disgust and a huge block in my throat when I try to force the ancestor stuff upon me or a connection to them and I feel off. It's a complete cut off and I shall cut all ties to both sides. I think bringing them onto spirituality is just same stuff as it all is everywhere, it's just a goddamn act. I don't give a damn fuck as shit about your tribe crap shaman community love. I'm done and I'm over. I tried tho!!!! And it was hell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you I from now on forbid any kind of ancestral communication. I don't believe in ancestors, to me they are just people that have nothing to do with me and this was my original opinion before anyone came to disrupt me and so it is. I dig some people on mom's side but I wonder if i dig them or what I saw in them.  I think it's all just a program and I literally have a knowing that it's not my due here. I'm supposed to drop the crap and leave (..which was my thought too before I spent too much time with brainwashed people). So here's the deal, if anyone comes to force that shit ass fuck down my throat again, I'm out and it's programming. Bye bitchies!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyways on Sysmä it's the ageism, classic, langueism, cultureism, nationalism, diminishing patronizing all the disgusting crap shit fuck game they've been onto the whole time. I always hated the people, I just liked presents, admiration and acceptance. And I avoided criticism and being ridiculed or judged. And I never said what I actually thought or sought after it fully and cut ties. but if I'm out, .... I'm out for good.You won't be seeing me this Christmas, or next, or in 40years. Just see. This is an agreement I make with myself.
I won't be taking visitors in my next home, I won't be sending images, I won't be sending money, I won't be providing nobody with anything. It's a complete cut off and yeah imma do it with moms side as well. And schools, and therapy cult, and "medical care", and anything of matrix. BYE

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