bye111

In terms of letting go what also came through was the people I thought would be "spiritual" were actually either players or just religiously programmed and full of fear and egotism or self pity. or occasionally, kind and we'll wishing but never done any actual work and the inner reflection was not deep and the depth was the basic storyline/mimicry/authority copy kind of depth and admiration of something that's just a lie. It's like they want to take this role yet they have nothing to offer and they take pride for providing something that's nothing. I used to admire this singing teacher and I really wanted her admiration and I literally wanted to be her and I wanted to be part of her family but I've realized she was not much anything and I actually am very much against people like her, at least to an extent. I believe that on an actual soul level there is some actual wisdom and in part there is some spirit but a lot of her is just a bag of trauma trying to...